I get a thought. It’s not a good one. It spirals out of control.
My whole reality is based on something that isn’t even happening. I take everything personally. The whole world feels like it’s crashing down. But I want to be in control. I want the results to be a certain way. I can’t let go.
What do I do in times like this?
First, I call my friends. Having a support group where you can unapologetically be yourself is like having bacon-wrapped gold. I can call them first thing in the morning and say, “I feel like I’m taking crazy pills!.” They give me space to be crazy. They also know me well enough to know my patterns and get to the root of the problem quicker than I can. Sometimes it’s hard to see the picture when you’re the one in the frame.
Next, I focus on what’s in front of me. What’s in the past is in the past, what’s in the future hasn’t happened. Anything I’m thinking is not true. What’s in front of me right now? An almond croissant and my laptop. Cool. I’m blogging. I love blogging. And I love almond croissants.
Similarly, I remember to do the things that I love. I fall back in alignment when I do things like take photos or go to yoga. Take care of me first and everything else is gravy. My whole goal is to feel good because when I’m good, so is everything else.
Being pushed to the point where you can’t tolerate something anymore is a blessing. I’m sick and tired of feeling like this! You’re pushed to the point where you’ll either go off the deep end or actually do something about it.
I work hard at being the best version of myself so that I can be better for the people in my life. One of my photographer friends called me the other day and said, “Girl, I don’t know what’s been going on but your work has been blowing me away.” As I open up more emotionally, I am producing better results in all aspects of my life.
I have to admit, this picture gives me a little bit of anxiety!! Love your post and how raw and true to yourself you are. I strive to do the same thing everyday and have started a self reflection journal to “check myself before I wreck myself” (Run DMC is wise! haha) I think it’s hard for people in our society nowadays to stop and remove yourself from the anxiety they are feeling and to focus on what’s in front of them and just do what they can.